There have been so many times in my life that I have allowed myself to feel bitterness and resentment over not getting the things that I wanted or needed out of life. However, as time has passed, these difficulties have allowed me to see a bigger picture. I like to refer to this as the Life Mosaic.
There Will Be Hardships
As I reflect back on my life, I can think of so many times where I thought that life was handing me a raw deal. I think that the biggest turn of events started when I was about 3 years sober. My husband and I experienced job changes, financial hardships, friendship changes……then came the infertility. I began to truly understand what “life on life’s terms” really meant. And while much of what I thought should happen from those events didn’t, I can tell you that a much bigger and better picture has continued to unfold.
Although it was difficult at first, if my husband and I had not moved, our careers would not be in the positive state that they are in now. I probably would not have returned to school. There are friendships that I have acquired that I never would have had before. Our infertility struggle has forced me to take a long hard look at myself. This examination has forced me to grow stronger with a God that I continue to try and understand. Going through some extremely painful times has helped our marriage grow stronger. We have had the humbling experience of actually going through all of those promises that we made in our vows: you know, that for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health stuff we talk about it? Turns out, it really does happen.
Is This Going To Make You Bitter, Or Make You Better?
Going through a trying time can either make you bitter, or allow self examination. If you are humble, the self examination can put you in a place where God can change your heart or “pull the weeds” from your garden. I have been fortunate enough to see how getting back up after the fall has shaped me into someone that I like a little better than before. It has also allowed me to be much more understanding about other’s shortcomings. The most important gift that I can give? Share my struggles with another human being. Help someone else going through the same situation. This not only helps to get me out of myself, but helps me feel a stronger connection to God.
Appreciate Your Life Mosaic
Are you able to see the reason behind the things that have happened in your life? Can you look at it like a mosaic and put the pieces together? I would love to hear your thoughts. If you are struggling, please know that nothing is permanent. In the words of Charlie Chaplin:
“Nothing is permanent in this wicked world, not even our troubles.”
More will be revealed. Take it one day at a time…..or as I like to say, Follow the Breadcrumbs.